Ater some though I've decided this:

Kefka will be something I save up for and kind will probably be my big 'hurrah', as it were. The hobby is expensive and I know I've aid it all before but I need time to save for something so big.

So, come expo, I'm going to do something I've wanted to do forever! And I will no doubt get groans and grimaces and 'why even bother? It's hardly a costume' comments... but you know what? Fuck off, I've wanted to do this for a very long time so I will, whether or not anyone actually approves or cares is a whole different thing.

See pic below.



Green shorts, black top, boots, and wig. Easy, cheap, and I love him to bits. Win win! \o/

Like, it's totally one of those days. You know the ones. Yeah, those ones. Exactly.

Also, Xender Crews.

Awesome weekend spent with Ange and Chris! We were going to go camping but at the last minute plans changed owing to my money issues and instead we had a sleepover at my place.

It was great fun; we ate pizza, drank wine and cider, played poker, and best of all, we went to Brighton for the day on saturday and had a lovely amble about inclusive of obligatory dip in the sea and visitation of the arcades. Win all round!

On the down side, I was quite down today when I did some final calculations and realised that visiting my family in Devon was not viable financially. So I had to make some phonecalls and apologise to my mom, but Devon isn't happening. I'm gutted because I haven't seem my folks since March, but hey, Dan's learning to drive and I'msure soon enough we'll be able to drive down for a visit :)

Thanks again Chris and Ange, Dan and I had a fab weekend and we really enjoyed ourselves! Thank you!! Let's so this more often! :D

x

I'm home sick today and finished reading my book so decided to sit at the pc doing research for work... and i came across the scissors i want more than life itself as my first pair of stylist scissors!



I think they're gorgeous and they suit me perfectly! All I need now is a handy £145 to buy them... hmm...

x

After an awesome-win time at Ange and Chris' birthday do (you guys are win-sauce, thanks again for everything! Best time i've had in ages, missed you all so much!) I was considering my own plans for my birthday.

Obviously, most folks won't be able to come to anything due to prepping up for Aya so I don't expect a massive turn out, but I just wonted some rough figures on the likelihood of people interested in coming over to mine and Dan's place on the second friday and saturday (8th and 9th) of August for booze and chuckles?

Any random feedback appreciated :)

NEW MONKEY ISLAND GAME!? CAN THIS BE TRUE! YES PLEASE!!

My first week of training has been fantastic! I love the girls I work with and my bosses are amazing and really motivating. Everyone is raring to go and we're all very excited! We had a models day yesterday and one of the stylists' model's didn't show, so I volunteered to model again. No doubt I'll be getting recoloured within the week too!
Silly picture for reference.



I don't know if I like this or not, because whilst it's a cool cut, I feel naked and exposed without my fringe long enough to sort of offset my face and balance my broad cheeks? Or very possibly, I'm just very set in my ways and this new, face-on-show appearence is a little scarey!

Anyways, I'm sorry I've been very not-here as my days in and out of London have been long and a little tiring to get used to! I hope everyone is ok, I'm so happy and enthusiastic right now I just want to infect everyone else with it! :D

x

Just had to say, first day at work. AWESOME. Two weeks of team training starts tomorrow and I am so excited!

Think I'll be having an early night tonight though since today was unusually long and I've been up and about sine 5am. Tired me is tired.

I'm feeling very '2006' today.
( Wal of text )

Music Meme thingy.

Open your music player of choice, hit random and post your favourite lyrics of the first 20 songs and see who gets them right!
Don't cheat and Google them! (I actually had trouble here cos a lot of my music is lyric-less soundtracks from games >.>)

1. Hey Gentlemen , Don't tell me lies... (deliberately very obscure, because otherwise it'd be too easy)

2. We're all living in America, Coca-Cola, Wonderbra.

3. Itsu no hi ni ka boukyaku no daichi ni takusan no hana wo sakaserareru to... Sou shinjiteru.

4. This is how it should be done, this style, style, style, done.

5. Hold your colours against the wall, when they take everything away

6. Let's hold on tight to dreams of ours, Even though we've still got a long way to go

7. Screwed or fucked, Rain or shine, In that ass, All the time

8. Some wounds never heal, Some tears never will, Dry for the unkind, Cry for mankind

9. "zutto soba ni iyou" nante kimari serifu kanawanai no shitteta

10. I`m in love with my lust, Burning angel wings to dust

11. Taking pills getting wise tonight, check into daddies eyes tonight, check into... taking two... watching you get high.

12. "PAPA ni himitsu de kakushite oita, oki ni iri no GARAKUTA ageta nara, hayaku yoku naru kana...?" A view of life as something transient and empty.

13. Saa kowai no nara ude wo kashite tsuresatte ageru "nanika ni kizutsuki nandomo naita anata" wo omou tabi

14. Ieyui, Nobomenu (any gamer ought to find this one piss)

15. Nani mo ka mo sui komaresou  ao ni sasowareru mama ni kaze wo ukeireru boku wa habataku

16. Mama kanoke kara nozoku keshiki wa marude ikoku no sama Dest-roy... You're doll!

17. You give and we take it, You build it, we break it

18. Kore kara boku wa sakura to tomo ni kaze ni yurarete kimi wo omoidasu

19. Can't complain, didn't even touch her so I can't be blamed

20. kiesaru kono sekai de anata to aishi tsuzukeru tamerai mo mayoi mo iranai tsuite oide

Stolen from caz_chan for teh lolz :)

Hello guys, just a stupid post that I expect will benefit none of you!

I've posted sales to the communities I'm on but figured I'd ask you all too since it's likely most of you aren't on those communities!

Baiscally, I'm FUCKD for rent money. I need to sell some stuff now so I can keep a roof squarely over my head until January, when my next loan installment comes in. This means, I've had to find things worth SOMETHING and try to sell them.

Firstly, if you follow THIS link, you'll be taken to my GENUINE Ofuku Senior Maiko wig. It was made for me, to order, by professionals in Japan. It cost me a small fortune. If I can even get half what I paid for it, I'll have half a month's rent right there! I'm so fucking sad to see it go, but unfortunately, I own very little of value to anyone other than fanatics of certain things >.<

All prices cinludes P&P and ARE OPEN TO OFFERS, I'M DESPERATE FOR MONEY!

Then, my Monsoon ball gowns. Firstly, this one:
Black silk evening dress

Size 14, but somewhat generous so I'd say it'll fit a 16. Been worn a handful of times. Made from silk, flows beautifully, about 45 inches long, plastic boned torso/bust area, side zip fastening, completely strapless.
Cost me £180 new, still like new but since it's been in storage I'll take whatever I can get. Looking for around £50 including postage.

Ivory & Gold Monsoon bridal dress

Pictured is a SIMILAR dress, but not the actual dress in question since at the time I was home sorting these items for sale, it was at th dry cleaners. The only difference between my dress and this one is my dress is a slightly bit lighter in colour and has only 2 straps for the shoulers, not 6.
Dress is made of silk, is cut to flow like a fishtail and has a slightly plunging neckline - it all looks very sexy! Dress is a size 14, but as with all Monsoon wear, it's pretty generous so mayfit a 16. Is ankle length on me when I'm wearing 3 inch heels and I'm 5' 6'', so it's a very long dress! Cost me £230 new. Looking for around £50ish again?

Justin Alexander wedding dress
Pics to come asap...

Black Chinese butterfly jacket

Jacketbis a size 12, but is a little tight, more of a generous 10. Embroidered butterfly is beautiful and the jacket is rather well made. Can't be sure of the fabric exactly, but it's similar to a satin jacquard. Has been worn by me a whole ONCE. Cost me around £35 when I bought it, looking for £15?

Offers, please! Anyone!

x

Stolen graciously from lex :)

You are Blue Sheep, who has a gentle and soft atmosphere.
You give favorable impression to many people.
You have inner strength, and give an impression of very intelligent person.
You are not cautious to opposite sex.
Although you don't push your point, you are very sociable and modest.
You also tend to be calm and will not yield in so easily.
You have strength not to show others your weakness.
You can objectively assess the other person's movement, and can tactfully make the situation favorable to you.
You can use this skill to help men be successful in life.
You can display your skill in drawing up a rational plan, but sometimes you take on things without much thought and regret it afterwards.
You should be careful about this.
You put great priority on economic side of everything.
You show interest in savings and can take good control of household budget.
Your stubbornness may affect your love.
But once you get along well, your relationship has a possibility of turning into heart-to-heart communication.
You are good at reading other people's mind and taking in charge of things.
You have weak point in maternal instinct.
After getting married, you tend to be over protected to your children, and may become obsessed with your children's education.

I promise I'll get around to replying to people soon! Been a bit busy!

To prove it, here's some pictures and a couple of stupid little videos of my at work doing my gauntlets. I'll be resin-ing them with lovely white resin on monday since we've been held up due to lack of plaster. Bad timing to the max... I've left this post as 'Public' for people to, hopefully, gain use of th 'knowledge' within!

It's been a long weekend! Not a bad one either, it's been rather fun! I hadn't heard from Rosie for a while for whatever her reasons are, and was surprised to receive this really lovely Red sun catcher in the post from her - having just moved into a new bedroom, it'll be able to go in my window where I previously had no window! So awesome!


With the funeral and my sister Claire moving out and everyone moving around the house with the workmen etc, it's been a bit chaotic, soI decided to blow my almighty £75 wages this weekend on visiting my dear friends Vincent and Lady in Plymouth. Once there, Francis and I checked into our modestly priced b&b, dolled up and went out in the pissing rain and howling gales to meet up. I drank rather a lot. I mean, well, I MIXED rather a lot...

I ended up drinking some 3 pints of guinness, 2 tia maria & cokes (one was actually quarter of a pint of tia maria since the bargirl couldnt be arsed to measure it out and just tipped up the bottle - woohoo!), amaretto & coke, mouthfuls of various concoctions including Toxic Waste and 5 pints of snake bite & blackcurrent. I was pretty brassick. Francis was, not surprisingly, the first to crack. He got a bit paraletic at the night club so we decided at that moment to leave. This is when the fun began...

Vince rings us a cab and we fall out of it and get into the b&b. Francis immediately flops into his bed and goes to sleep. Not me, however. Soon as I sit down, I suddenly realise I am drunk. Until this moment, I thought I was fairly sober. Lies! I feel sick so run to the toilet in the corridoor to empty my stomach. I have this REALLY bad habit when I'm pissed of making myself sick to hurry up the sobering process, so I spent a good 10 minutes forcing my stomach content out. I don't realise til I get back my room I had actually undressed and had just run o the toilet in nothing but my knickers. I don't *think* anyone saw me...

I then feel sick again, and think to myself, 'oh for FUCK'S SAKE.' and just grab the bin so I can lie down and be sick if I need to. I fall asleep not long after.  Waking up the next day at about 7.30am, feeling pretty damn ok for someone who was so wankered, Francis says to me, 'did you know there's another bin by your bed?' I look down and think, huh? There IS indeed a second bin. Two bins where I recall only one. The hell? I say, 'do you think the hotel owner lady heard me being sick and put it in here whilst we slept just in case?' Francis tells me we left the door unlocked so yeah, possibly. Hmm.
We drink coffee and get dressed, watch TV and go down for breakfast. We then go to our room to pack and leave for check out time at 10am. We run a bit late cos of obligatory phone calls and the hotel owner lady comes knocking telling us to leave cos she's gotta clean the room. She then takes Francis aside and asks me if there's any damage! She tells me straight up she knew I was sick and did I by any chance have a bin in my room. ''Why, yes! There IS another bin in here! I've got no idea where it came from!' I blurt, laughing. She replies, very coldly, 'it's from the toilet. And so's that toile roll.' Toilet roll? I look and there is, indeed, a toilet roll on the bedside table next to the tissue box. Turns out I wrenched it off the holder when I went to the toilet, which was the same time I took the bin. Fuck only knows why I did those things. 

So, we leave after we hear hotel lady stressing about the sheets and stuff (Francis gave her his number and offered to pay for any damage! WTF!) and get a cab to town for our farewell coffee with Vince and Lady. Turns out Vince was hungover, too, hahahaha! 

I had a really good time. Once home, we visit my sister and her man at their new flat and play poker for a few hours. It was cool seeing their new place and chilling out. It was a rather nice flat!

So yeah, that's it really. Me, my weekend of boozing, and a bin.

I lol'd. Oh yes I did. Girl got get? SAGE. x

A big thank you to everyone who has supported me over the last week. I've been having a bit of a rough time dealing with all these changes but now I'm finding my way and I'm relieved. The worst is over and now I'm moving on.

Thank you all for being so awesome. I really have the best friends on the whole world, you guys are amazing.

xxx

It's now over. I sit here, typing, lost in ribbons of tears and sadness. My nan has hous or less left. Everyone is there. I sat with her for an hour and a half, just stroking her hair and holding her hand. She's breathing so heavilly... I held her in my arms for a while. That'll never leave me.

I wanted to be there till the end. But I just couldn't. The sight made me cry. Nan doesn't like it when we cry. I had to go. So it's over now. All the time I spent with her, helped her with housework and enjoyed her company. No more. Tonight it ends. Tonight she'll stop suffering.

She's being given morphine every 2 minutes. She must be on cloud 15. She can barely speak, but she can smile. As soon as I saw her I could hardly believe it was the same person. There's such a big hole where she's going to leave me. Me and my family. I love my nan. I said my 'i ove you's', my 'thank yous' an my 'goodbyes'. I've said all that needs to be said. Now I can be relieved. Sad and heartbroken, but relived.

It's over now.

I've been having more of my vivid dreams. Last night, it was an old friend I met in Japan. He and I didnt get on too well at first - he was a very logical minded, somewhat quiet and cynical american. I was very much the opposite. But about halfway into my stay we got on better and I have these random days where I just miss him very much. I never got to say goodbye before I left Japan and even though we keep in touch rarely on facebook, I'd prefer to visit him.

This is him - Alex.



He used to be in the Airforce so we called him 'Triple A', All American Alex. I thought he was really funny. We'd often have weird sleeping patterns so we'd just sit up drinking some kind of booze late at night and watch tv in silence. It was a very chilled experience. I enjopyed just having company, to be honest.

It was a very odd dream. More like a convosation than a surreal fantasy. But there as plenty of surrealism. Like the fact a huge group of us were meant to be staying in the Whitehouse (wtf?) which was haunted, every room a different ghost and a different weird thing happening in it, but I had just returned to Yamasa (which is in Japan, Okazaki) to study. The first person I saw was Alex, and I was really glad to see him, but despite this, I had a lot of trouble opening my mouth and saying anything. I felt somewhat undeserving. But sooooo overwhelmed with happiness, I can't explain it at all. I think some little part of me still misses his company and certainly his sense of humour. I have a lot of fond memories related to Alex.

Wish I could afford to go visit him. But if I did, that'd throw every other plan this year out of the window. No cosplay, no paying debts, no saving money. Nothing at all. Certainly nothing frivolous. I'd be that one thing for a few days and then home - the end. It hurts to face the fact.

But oh well. I have my memories.